Life is dull. But I think I want to post more. Then maybe I will find remember the fun and the good times I do have instead of feeling like all I do is hide.
I need to branch out and make new friends. I need real ones. I have real ones but they are not local. Having lost my 2 best friends to their fucking…..I am sort of lost.
I need people to force me to go out. Because my default is to stay home in my pjs.
The good? I am feeling better! Finally! I think I need to find a way to work out. The time change is not helping that, nor is the fact that I am BROKE.
The bad? Work got fucked. I do not even want to rehash it all. But I went from making $200K to maybe $140K. Is that bad? Only because I have nothing saved (bought a car cash which was necessary) and have not paid any 2015 taxes yet. Sigh….the pipeline is there. I should be ok. But I made some financial decisions based on the fact that I was going to have money coming in and it fizzled.
Gratitude? I need to feel grateful. Which is not easy when I am probably in the middle of PMS. 😉 So what am I grateful for? The rain yesterday. We need it. Getting things done for the class I have now taken twice (work based). Coloring. If you try this DO NOT look on Pinterest for what others are doing. But I am loving blending (4 types of) colored pencils and creating pretty things. Am I super artsy? Not really. I had talent when I was younger. I might take something up again. My sex drive is back? Or it was. PMS = meh but this month I did feel normal.