I lieu of a drink tonight we saw a psychic after an open studio art show.
She told me I am independent and strong. She said my 4th chakra is blocked and that is why I cannot find love.
She said there was deception on the last relationship. And while that is not 100% accurate (to my knowledge) there was not full honesty.
And I asked if he is coming back…ever? And she said no. He can’t. He won’t. He longs for me, but he won’t.
It is good to hear. I need to know. I need to move past him. Because as I am mourning the relationship he promised, not the one I really had.
I miss that he didn’t push my buttons. I miss how I looked in his eyes. I miss what could have been.
But I will be ok.
The Rapper is a whole other story that I do not have the energy to get into right now. But suffice it to say we can’t quit each other yet. But I am on the brink of just telling him to go fuck himself.
The psychic did say I always date the same guy. And I lump the rapper (but not really the Attorney) into that. So, I think that tells me to move on, too.