The text convos continue with the Shop Owner. Things can get a little serious, but I love that he takes it all in stride and participates. The other night I went on a rant about people and he asked to call me since it was something to talk about. It turned into a talk about what we want.
Him: Companionship is really important to me. I enjoy having a women in my life. The right one anyway. I can be single and happy but it’s not preferred. I really desire affection. I have broken up with several women because they are cold. How about you?
Me: [Being a little careful] I want to find my equal (or hell, someone better than me). I am tired of dating randoms. I want someone who is sticking around. Who is on the same page. I want to build something and not start over in 6 months
And later I said: Shit. without bragging, I can have quite a few men who would take me with every fault and never ask me to change or be a better version of me….but that is not what I want. I want to find that person that makes me want to be better/more/pushes me/challenges me.
Both of us are tired of dating but not willing to settle. So, I think we are on the same page.
He sent me this article. And it summed up what I have been thinking about dating. I am sometimes trying to “Fuck yes” something when everything in me is saying “Meh”
So now we have a saying – he sent me the article and my response was “Fuck yes”. And it remains “Fuck yes”.
I dreamt I slept through Thursday (our next date) and woke at 6:47 thinking it was morning but it was night. I was with Friend Turned. Who was stroking my breasts while I was worried about my breath (sexy time dreams due to ovulating). It took awhile in the dream to realize I had not gotten a text from Shop Owner that he had arrived home from his trip. And I started to get concerned when I woke up. To a real text from him of “Morning”.
I am not sure what that means. I think my brain is telling me to check my expectations. And they are checked. But I am excited. I am excited to see him, hear him, look him in the eye, sit near him, touch him. I am excited to interact and take in all the nuances.
I try not to worry. This, so far, has been pretty amazing. And I still have a bomb to drop. And based on questions on eH@rmony I have an inkling it will not go over well.