Someone I read is doing this. I thought I might try, too. I used to NEED to write. And I probably still do, it just gets put on the endless to do list and forgotten as most “luxury” items are. It took me 2 months to get a pedicure. TWO months! Ugh!
Let’s call today #2 since I posted yesterday.
We had a big chat last night. Instigated from an email I sent which was in response to comments in an argument we had last week.
I told him he is right. I am not 100% in. And I told him why – I am not willing to waste the last years of my “youth” (heh, almost 40 over here) and the last of my dying eggs for anything less than what I want.
And I laid it all out – what I want in a partner, what I want from my life, that it is time I admit to myself I DO want to get married and I *might* want a kid. And if we are not on the same page then please let me go.
He went through it all point by point. He does fit. And he wants what I want. Or mostly. He did not say he would get married again. But I also told him it bugs me that after 3 years they are not divorced and he has had the paperwork for months, so file already. Apparently, she now has the paperwork. So it is back in her hands.
I would think I would be ecstatic. But I am not. I am still pondering.