I am losing:
-possibly my last chance at children
-someone strong to lean on
-someone to hold me
-someone who wants to show me off
-the guilt of ignoring my pets
What am I gaining
-I get to stop trying to smooth things over to control his emotions.
-No guilt in seeing my friends.
-I can stop counting his drinks, watching his eyes and listening for the slur that says he has had too much
-I do not have to worry he is being too aggressive towards my friends and clients.
-I can stop worrying there will be blow back from my hoa or neighbors